Some people have such a heightened need for truth that it even gradually breaks through the boundaries set by a person for the purpose of self-defense, and gradually reaches the stage of sincerity, that is, truthfulness about himself for himself. And this is despite the fact that there is not a single argument in defense of sincerity except for the sense of its intrinsic value that is very strange for many people. I, for example, is such a person. From early childhood, I experienced this feeling not because of, but contrary to the examples given to me by people around me. My parents were a completely ordinary example of conciliation. They were ready to approve any order of things, so as not to get him into opposition. It has always been easier for them, but from early childhood I remember how everything flashed in me as soon as I noticed some kind of insincerity, injustice. It certainly was not acquired. And only then, when I began to read books, then my need for sincerity began to acquire some kind of features, depending on which characters and ideas I sympathized with. At the same time, I could ardently defend some ideas about justice, which I later rejected after I was convinced of the falsity of the principles on which they were based. That is, the initial need for sincerity and justice was looking for ways of expressing itself through the formation of certain principles, many of which subsequently revealed their internal contradictions and were not discarded without a struggle with themselves.
Sincerity guided me with such firmness that sometimes she overcame the instincts of self-preservation, the strongest desires of possession. If, for example, I saw that a girl with whom I was in love, did not feel love for me, she was drawn to another, but by inertia, out of awkwardness or for any other reasons, remains with me, I could not stand He began to explain to her the situation and push her where she was really drawn. Considering that I fell in love easily all my life, I was completely absorbed by falling in love, and besides, I was very jealous, I had to overcome the strongest of my own resistance, but conformist desires could never overcome the powerful desire for sincerity I am sure that right now, with my inappropriate sincerity, honesty, desire for justice, I am destroying my happiness forever.
How can this happen at all? How is it that some people have such a strong need for sincerity and justice? I think that the reason should be sought in the fact that such needs are part of evolutionarily beneficial behavior. Roughly speaking, the monkey that manifests the need for sincerity, justice, which wants to displace reality to a lesser extent – that monkey is more likely to create a more adequate picture of the world in its head, which means ultimately its actions will be more expedient. Thus, in the process of evolution, inevitably the consolidation of such qualities. If at least some individuals of this or that community have such qualities, this means that the community is able to have access to a more realistic picture of the world, and the likelihood is that this access will play its role in situations where survival depends on the ability to perceive the world around. and take adequate action.
Thus, the need for sincerity and justice inevitably appears and develops as society evolves. That is, they are not some kind of “moral overruns,” not some random features of some individuals. These illuminated perceptions are the inevitable products of the evolution of conscious beings.